Life is so expensive.
Has anyone else noticed that?
On the day I was born, gas cost 98 cents a gallon. Today, in CollegeTown, it costs $3.65 a gallon. A credit hour cost roughly $97. Now I'm paying well over $28,000 for ONE year of schooling.
For Pete's sake, people!
(Who is this Pete anyway...and why are we worried about things for his sake? What makes him so special?)
How in the world am I going to be able to do this?????
Only with the help of God, that's how.
This is insane, Chrissi. What are you doing???? (Holy crow, now I'm yelling at myself...I must be tired)
Abba...I know you want me here...but I still have no idea why. All I know is that I am here. But I won't be for very long if I don't find more of this nasty little money thing that people crave so. How ridiculous we are to let our lives be run by green slips of paper that can just as easily be burned out of existence instead of being used to gather up all the pretty things in life that we humans long to have.
"Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have." - Hebrews 13:5
Well, I'm trying, Abba...but I'm being constantly badgered at to "Give me this!" and "You need to pay for that!" even "It's only $$$! How can you NOT pay for it?"
I, unlike some people in this world, don't really want money to buy pretty little nothings for myself. Sure, there are things I'd like to have and wouldn't mind splurging every now and then when my wallet allows it. But really and truly, I just want the money so I can pay what I owe...so I can be rid of this burden called debt. Holy crow! I'm halfway between 18 and 19 and already owe too much...but I'm where You said to go. So here I am. And I know, deep in my heart, that You will provide for me. I know You will. You promised. And You are the only one left in my life who has not broken a promise. When my father was in the hospital and I prayed that he would be healed...You promised...and now his tumor has been reduced to a size smaller than a pea and he's perfectly healthy. When I prayed for strength to survive overall horrendous aftermath of my parents' separation and divorce last year...You promised...and here I am today...able to look people in the eye and say that not only do I still believe in true love...God is writing my love story. He has blessed the broken road that has led me straight to one of the best things in my life.
So,
After allllllll that...I know that if You have promised to provide for me, then I know You will keep that promise. While the road ahead is unsure and rocky, You are still mighty and strong.
"Remember the Lord your God, for it is he who gives you the ability to produce wealth..." - Deuteronomy 8:18
Ach, such heavy worries to be thinking about before bedtime. I just had to get it all down or else I'd be up all night...
Ach...
Meine Gute...
Must
Go
To
Sleep.
Sweet dreams, all...
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