Just when something's fixed, something else breaks...

Just when I finally get used to my new schedule and everything else up here...


My stomach starts acting up...


Every night for almost the past week, right before I go to bed, my stomach starts rolling...not like I'm going to puke, not like I'm hungry...just all bubbly and blecky...not exactly a pain but uncomfortable enough to keep me awake for at least an hour after I try to go to bed...


What is wrong with me??


Bleck...


I hardly ever get sick...in any way...with the exclusions of my cysts and migraines...so this whole stomach thing is really worrying me...


I don't like it...



Just had to get that out on paper...was tired of mulling it over and over in my head... *sigh*


Watching Smurfs with my wondeful roommate (she's taking good care of me, making sure i drink lots of water and have Tums) then going to try to sleep...

He's gonna catch 'em all cuz he's Danny Phantom!

I'm totally loving watching all the episodes of Danny Phantom...


Day made!


P.S. I forgot how much I love the theme song...it's been on replay in my head since Tuesday...

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times...

I've only been back a couple days and I'm already sick of this new schedule...

My days consist of class after class broken up by hour-long breaks...long enough to eat or catch up on reading but not really long enough to take a much needed nap or get a much needed hug. After classes, I head to work til 8 o'clock, with the exception of Mondays, when I have a night class and choral union instead. By the time I get back to my dorm, all I want to do is curl up in his arms and fall asleep...unfortunately, that's not an option. Not just because of the rules around here but because he has practice and when he's done with that, he goes to bed because he gets up so early for work. *sigh*

It's like we're living at completely different times...and honestly, it's frustrating the hell outta me...if this is how the rest of the semester is going to be...*shakes head*...


I'm really worried about him anyway...a couple Sundays ago, he seemed like he really need to hear God say something...then he had some BIG questions a few nights ago...and now, he's asked me to be praying for him...he doesn't do that unless something is really wrong...but I don't know what it is! I really just want to take him somewhere so we can talk...I want to help him, to support him, to be there by his side as he walks the path the Lord has set before him...even if he can't see where the path leads. Part of the reason why I so look forward to being his wife...I'll get to do all that...mhm...I can't wait...anyway...I'm really, really worried about him...

I can't ever seem to tell him that though because I never see him...and he's not very good about answering his phone...or text messages...which can be rather frustrating when I'm trying to have a conversation with him.


I was so excited to get to see him tonight...I didn't even care that I'd have to share him because he wanted to get a Tripoley group together. I was even more excited after my day at work because of everything that happened there. I just wanted to share it with him. But he got out of play practice late and then went straight back to his place...all I ended up getting was a "goodnight" and "pray for me" sort of text...talk about mood killer...for one, I miss him like crazy and for two, now I'm concerned about him. But no...he's probably sound asleep by now and if I do see him tomorrow, it'll be during chapel...yay...


*sigh*


Abba, please...give me patience and strength to deal with whatever comes my way. And please, be with him. Give him the knowledge he's looking for and peace to deal with what he can't. Wrap him in your loving arms and shine your light upon him. Keep him safe. And help me to support and help him in any way possible and help me to show him how much he means to me. Help me be the woman he deserves. And please, Abba, be with us as we journey forth into the uncharted (for us) territory of engagement and eventually, marriage. Guide us, lead us, watch over us, and love us as we journey along. Thank you, Abba, for everything you've done for me, for him, for the both of us. You are truly amazing. Amen

And cue sigh of relief

I feel like I can breathe again. It wasn't until we got back on campus that I realized just how much I missed this place...


Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVED being home...and I was sad to leave...but this is my home now. Not that my house has been much of a home in the past two years...more of a disaster area...but I survived...that's probably why I acclimated to college so easily. Because, in my mind, I was already here...


It's good to be back...


Now if I can just stay...stupid money...why do you have to be so important? Because this is a greedy world and the more green, the happier people are...bleck.


Thanks to some wonderful angels on earth, I'll be here for at least a month...hopefully I have work well under way by then and I'll be getting some paychecks to cover everything...may not be driving anywhere for a couple months but hey, I'll be at school...



Speaking of school, I need to get to bed...I have an early morning tomorrow tracking everyone down that I need information or papers from...then off to pay and then chapel...and then! Off to Teaching Young Adult Literature *grins* I am so excited for that class!!!! Then I need to see when I'm on the schedule for work...maybe even get some hours in tomorrow...


Well...my roommate has disappeared...but I'm going to bed anyways...goodnight, world...



EDIT:

Also, I would like to add that choir went better than I thought...so did breaking the "big news" to my friends *grins* it so nice to see people who are as excited about the engagement as I am instead of being told I'm " too young", "not ready", or "rushing things". To everyone who I talked to at choir, thank you...your reactions were exactly what I needed. Love you guys...


And now....goodnight...