There are days I really hate being a girl...5 days out of every month to be exact...
Curses....bleck.....
I tend to have a pretty high pain tolerance so the cramping and backaches really don't bother me...they're just uncomfortable...
And the bleeding constantly is really annoying...especially in the summer...causes trips to the pool to need careful planning...
But what I hate most are the freaking mood swings...
One minute, I'll be just fine, super happy and everything...next minute something miniscule will annoy me and all I can see is red. In my mind I'm thinking, "okay, Chrissi, it's just such-and-such, nothing to get so pissy about, just calm down and forget it." Meanwhile, my brain is screaming, "Must. Be. Pissed!!!!"
Sounds like fun, right?
Makes me feel like...ultra bipolar or something...geez....or even a tad schizo....it's a right party in my head...
It would be easier if it would stay under control...but it seems no matter what I do, I end up losing control...
And I get really, REALLY sick of the people who tell me "Oh, you're just reacting like this cuz you're on your period."
Umm...not totally....
I usually react that way...you just don't see it because I'm very good at hiding what I truly think when I want to be. It just happens that when I'm on my period, my hormones are going wonky, so my control over my reactions is not as good...so I seem to be angrier......but really, I'm just actually showing my anger instead of hiding it so that it doesn't cause any extra problems.
Bleck...
A part of me really wants to have the dang surgery someday so I don't have to have my period anymore....but that would mean no kids as well...and I very much want the chance to be a mommy some day...
If I can even have kids...
Stupid ovarian cysts...
Why must my lady parts hate me?
On a sidenote, I kinda sorta (not really) feel bad for any guy who reads this post...it's probably grossing him out...but at the same time, dude, if you're going to be married someday...you have to get used to period talk. Heck, you can even come up with a code name for it. My boyfriend calls it "Shark Week". Yeah...I know....he's special...but *shrugs* I love him...
Besides, if you're a REAL man, you would buy your girl tampons or pads...just to show how much you care...
Also, due to the discomfort brought on by cramping and backaches, it is much harder to fall asleep at night...like right now...I've been about ready to pass out for at least an hour...but no....can't get comfortable to sleep...even now i'm not comfortable....bleck...i want sleep!!!
On another (happier) sidenote...tonight, while hanging out with my man i was listening to my favorites playlist on youtube. Toby Keith's song "Huckleberry" came on...my man proceeded to hold me close and sing the song to me...I cried...for real...*sigh*...best part of my day...I love him...
Mhm...I love that song...so much...it always makes me think of him...
I really do need to get to bed...actually in all honesty, I need to do my science homework that is due at 8 tomorrow morning...but I have decided to say screw it...I have my B for the class, that's all I care about...besides, my neck is starting to ache now as well so i'm going to try, once again, to find a comfortable position to fall asleep in...7:30 is going to come sooner than I want it...
Is it Christmas break yet?
Only 17 more sleeps til Christmas...only 8 more til Christmas break...hooray!!!!
So close...
Just like Dreamland...must...go...
Goodnight, world...I'll see you bright and early in the morning...
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