It's December 1st and i am so excited!!! *grins* Christmas is in the air!
All my favorite things about the season are already starting...lights on houses, Salvation Army bell ringers at stores, 25 Days til Christmas on ABC Family, smiles on everyone around...
Christmastime always makes people...nicer, more loving, more helpful, more hopeful...it's beautiful...
Just today, when I went to Wal-Mart, the man parked next to me emptied his cart at the same time I did. I turned around just in time to see him pushing MY cart along with his to the cart thingy without even being asked. Upon returning back to his car, I told him thanks and he replied with a no problem and merry Christmas!
Mhm...how wonderful *smiles*
I'm so ready for Christmas with my family...yes, we're broken and still healing...but Christmas is always the time of year we manage to forget everything else and just enjoy being with each other. We laugh and talk and play Bingo and Apples to Apples and stick to our silly traditions but we all enjoy it.
Also, at Christmas, we seem to do things we wouldn't usually...for instance, I just texted my father and am now holding a real conversation with him for the first time since September...all because I felt like it. And he's replying! *sigh of happiness* Sure, I'm still angry at him behind all meaning but he IS still my dad...even if he doesn't really act like it...and honestly, I'm over the whole fact that he left. I'm angry becuase he still treats my mom like a piece of crap and he makes almost no effort to make contact with me or my siblings. I do miss him...I miss the sound of his voice calling my name, talking to him about bands and upcoming concerts, smelling the sawdust that always seemed to linger on him after a long day working in his shop, eating orange cinnamon rolls on Saturday mornings...*sigh*
..............okay..............I'm done for now.........the subject change kinda killed where I was going....oh well....i think i needed to say all that....really....
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