Music is always playing in my head...

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la lala lalalalalalalalalala...



Yup...that's right...I'm singing on here...haha...

All day today, random bits of VERY random songs have been popping in and out of my head...

First, it was P!ATD's "This is Halloween"...

...then "Day after day, all the prince ever does is practice, practice, practice!"

......and then "I got CHILLS! They're multiplyin'! And I'm losing control cuz the power you're supplyin'...it's ELECTRIFYIN'!!!!!!"

yup...just random songs...


though I guess they're all from movies...so maybe not so random...hmm...oh well...


I'm glad I have a soundtrack playing in my head...it's comforting...and the songs usually have something to do with what's going on in my life...though I'm not sure what the three I've mentioned do...hmm...*shrugs*

....................................................*sigh*...........................................................


I know I'm not a very patient person but...SNAIL MAIL SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!! I know I just mailed that letter yesterday...and it's only Monday....but UGH!!!!!! I want an answer and I want it now!!!! *grimaces*

This letter is going to change my life...and my mom's life...and my siblings' lives...and his life...


Him...Joshua...

*sigh*

I haven't even met him but I already love him...

He is my brother after all...half-brother, really...but who cares?

Ach...I've been dying to meet him or even just contact him for almost 8 years...and finally...


FINALLY!!!!
Finally, I can...

Now I just have to wait for him to get the letter...and reply?


*sigh*

What if he doesn't reply?

What if he hates me?

What if? What if?


What and if are two of the world's most innocent words...until they're put next to each other...and then they have the power to ruin everything...


*sigh*

I hope he at least replies...just to know that he IS actually there...and knows who I am...that's really all I can ask for...ach...