This science class is going to kill me...
What an awful way to die!
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Music needs no explanation
I am thoroughly enjoying my Straight No Chaser playlist on Pandora...
It's introduced me to all sorts of new a capella groups that are just...mindblowing...
There's Committed:
And then there's The Backbeats who are just amazing...and the one girl who does the backbeats just...whoa...
They can sound like that....or this....
And then there's On The Rocks, a gigantic all guys group ...
And that's just a few of the groups....
It's...just absolutely mindblowing....
....I think I found my official favorite style of music...
singing like that...without any help except the person singing with you...
That's true talent...
It's introduced me to all sorts of new a capella groups that are just...mindblowing...
There's Committed:
And then there's The Backbeats who are just amazing...and the one girl who does the backbeats just...whoa...
They can sound like that....or this....
And then there's On The Rocks, a gigantic all guys group ...
And that's just a few of the groups....
It's...just absolutely mindblowing....
....I think I found my official favorite style of music...
singing like that...without any help except the person singing with you...
That's true talent...
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Perfection...
Straight No Chaser and Jack Johnson playing on my radio...
The sun is shining; the 70 degree weather is beautiful...
A peaceful feeling in my heart...
And the ability to just sit and relax...
*sigh*
Ahh...perfection...
The sun is shining; the 70 degree weather is beautiful...
A peaceful feeling in my heart...
And the ability to just sit and relax...
*sigh*
Ahh...perfection...
Hope is the thing with feathers...and D'Artagnan is the one with mad sword skils
That was the most interesting and unexpected walk I have ever been on...
Sure, it started out awkward...
"So what do you think of this weather?"
Thank you...for just talking...
In some odd way, that felt more like two friends reconnecting after not seeing each other in years than his ex and his current girl trying to bridge that horrid gap between them...
In all honesty, I set out to let you have it, to rip into about how your assumptions and preceptions of me are hurtful and untrue and how you need to stop telling others how awful he and I are...
But instead...we just...talked...about lots of things...
It was entertaining to see how much we have in common...rather strange in a way as well...I've never known anyone else to get as distracted as I do when walking through the trails...or to enjoy puns like I do...hmm...
That's what You wanted, wasn't it, Abba? You wanted the two of us to see what we had in common, to not let the past get in the way of what we thought of each other.
Well, from my point of view, it worked.
And whatever magic You worked over us on our walk continued during the choir concert...it was rather fun when we were able to joke back and forth...I enjoyed the surprised looks on a couple peoples' faces as well...haha...
Didn't expect that, did you?
I hope this lasts...and honestly, I think I may ask her to go on a walk with me again...another thing we had in common was liking to take long walks and just see where our feet would take us...but not having many people who had the time or patience to do so with us...and neither of us really wanted to go alone...plus...we could get to know each better...
I think that's been the problem all along...we don't really know each other...and in all honesty, I would like to remedy that situation...
Random add in: something else I'd like to remedy...learning swordplay...it's so fascinating and daring...I've always wanted to learn...even though there's not much place for it in these times...still...so awesome!!! I guess this was brought on by seeing the 3 Musketeers with everyone last night...watching D'Artagnan totally pwn the soldiers was just epic...wish I could be like that...but no...hmm...
Anyway....
Back to the walk and talk...
I was worried about bringing up the original topic before we got back...but I just felt this peace, like I didn't need to worry about it...and yes, I have checked what you said about it...and it's already looking up...
*sigh of relief*
Does this mean my rollercoaster is going uphill now, Abba? Or do I need to pull a D'Artagnan and fight off 40 soldiers after getting shot in the arm...?
It's looking like an uphill kind of day...
Mhm...
Sure, it started out awkward...
"So what do you think of this weather?"
Thank you...for just talking...
In some odd way, that felt more like two friends reconnecting after not seeing each other in years than his ex and his current girl trying to bridge that horrid gap between them...
In all honesty, I set out to let you have it, to rip into about how your assumptions and preceptions of me are hurtful and untrue and how you need to stop telling others how awful he and I are...
But instead...we just...talked...about lots of things...
It was entertaining to see how much we have in common...rather strange in a way as well...I've never known anyone else to get as distracted as I do when walking through the trails...or to enjoy puns like I do...hmm...
That's what You wanted, wasn't it, Abba? You wanted the two of us to see what we had in common, to not let the past get in the way of what we thought of each other.
Well, from my point of view, it worked.
And whatever magic You worked over us on our walk continued during the choir concert...it was rather fun when we were able to joke back and forth...I enjoyed the surprised looks on a couple peoples' faces as well...haha...
Didn't expect that, did you?
I hope this lasts...and honestly, I think I may ask her to go on a walk with me again...another thing we had in common was liking to take long walks and just see where our feet would take us...but not having many people who had the time or patience to do so with us...and neither of us really wanted to go alone...plus...we could get to know each better...
I think that's been the problem all along...we don't really know each other...and in all honesty, I would like to remedy that situation...
Random add in: something else I'd like to remedy...learning swordplay...it's so fascinating and daring...I've always wanted to learn...even though there's not much place for it in these times...still...so awesome!!! I guess this was brought on by seeing the 3 Musketeers with everyone last night...watching D'Artagnan totally pwn the soldiers was just epic...wish I could be like that...but no...hmm...
Anyway....
Back to the walk and talk...
I was worried about bringing up the original topic before we got back...but I just felt this peace, like I didn't need to worry about it...and yes, I have checked what you said about it...and it's already looking up...
*sigh of relief*
Does this mean my rollercoaster is going uphill now, Abba? Or do I need to pull a D'Artagnan and fight off 40 soldiers after getting shot in the arm...?
It's looking like an uphill kind of day...
Mhm...
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Where do I go from here...?
Today's the day...
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I don't want to do this...at this point, I don't even remember why I'm doing this...
Oh yeah...because she needs to know that her assumptions hurt and that if she would just ask, then she'd see that I'm not the monster she makes me out to be. In fact, scarily enough, we have a lot in common.
Is it irrational of me to think of this walk as two friends going out and discussing something that's come between them in a mature matter?
Of course it is...we're not friends...she can't even the stand the sight of me...nor I her...too many memories...but I have come to realize (at like 3 this morning) that it isn't the memories that hurt anymore...it isn't the fact that he was ever with her...it's the fact that she is saying all this about me because I'm with him now...
And that, my non-friend, is stupid...just flat out stupid. You don't judge someone by who they date, especially given our...unique...circumstances...
I. don't. want. to. do. this.
No.
Don't make me!
Ach...I guess since I'm the one who opened her big mouth and said we needed to talk, it's my fault...
I should really just place duct tape over my mouth whenever she's in the vicinity...
11:11!!!!!!
*closes eyes tight and wishes with all her might*
Oh Abba, please give me the strength to do this...and the peace to survive it...
2 hours and 18 minutes and counting...
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I don't want to do this...at this point, I don't even remember why I'm doing this...
Oh yeah...because she needs to know that her assumptions hurt and that if she would just ask, then she'd see that I'm not the monster she makes me out to be. In fact, scarily enough, we have a lot in common.
Is it irrational of me to think of this walk as two friends going out and discussing something that's come between them in a mature matter?
Of course it is...we're not friends...she can't even the stand the sight of me...nor I her...too many memories...but I have come to realize (at like 3 this morning) that it isn't the memories that hurt anymore...it isn't the fact that he was ever with her...it's the fact that she is saying all this about me because I'm with him now...
And that, my non-friend, is stupid...just flat out stupid. You don't judge someone by who they date, especially given our...unique...circumstances...
I. don't. want. to. do. this.
No.
Don't make me!
Ach...I guess since I'm the one who opened her big mouth and said we needed to talk, it's my fault...
I should really just place duct tape over my mouth whenever she's in the vicinity...
11:11!!!!!!
*closes eyes tight and wishes with all her might*
Oh Abba, please give me the strength to do this...and the peace to survive it...
2 hours and 18 minutes and counting...
Friday, October 21, 2011
It's the end of the world as we know it...but I don't feel fine...
On a sidenote...someone did predict that the world would end today...how ironic is it that it feels like the world as I know it is ending...
Because I told her...I told her we had to talk...
....I fumbled over my words and shook like a sapling in a stormy wind but...I told her...
And now I have to wait until she sends me a message letting me know when she's free...ugh...
I am so not looking forward to this...
But I know it needs to happen...and I do feel a sort of peace knowing that this will be brought out in the open...*sigh*...I just wish it wasn't going to be so messy...
Abba, I'm 99.9% sure that this is what I need to do...if it is, please give me the words to say...if not, please open a hole in the ground to swallow me up...
*looks down*
*doesn't see a hole*
*sighs*
Alright, Abba...I trust You....
Subject change...
Living with almost 30 girls and only having 4 working showers and having to all get ready for the Homecoming banquet tonight...yeah...that's interesting...
Hmm...at least this should distract me...hopefully...
Time to go drown myself in the shower...kinda...in a way...whatever...I'm done now...
Because I told her...I told her we had to talk...
....I fumbled over my words and shook like a sapling in a stormy wind but...I told her...
And now I have to wait until she sends me a message letting me know when she's free...ugh...
I am so not looking forward to this...
But I know it needs to happen...and I do feel a sort of peace knowing that this will be brought out in the open...*sigh*...I just wish it wasn't going to be so messy...
Abba, I'm 99.9% sure that this is what I need to do...if it is, please give me the words to say...if not, please open a hole in the ground to swallow me up...
*looks down*
*doesn't see a hole*
*sighs*
Alright, Abba...I trust You....
Subject change...
Living with almost 30 girls and only having 4 working showers and having to all get ready for the Homecoming banquet tonight...yeah...that's interesting...
Hmm...at least this should distract me...hopefully...
Time to go drown myself in the shower...kinda...in a way...whatever...I'm done now...
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Witness my love, my Love
My love, my love
With eyes like a storm
And hair shining like a raven’s wingMy love, my love
With arms so strong
And a beating heart of pure goldMy love, my love
With courage rareAnd a voice filled with passion
My love, my love
With life so full And such a jewel to behold
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