I visited you today. We were out that way and I wanted to stop by and say hi. I stopped at Dillion's to get you some flowers first. There was the bouquet of bright yellow Gerber daisies that just screamed 'Todd'.
Finding your grave was a little difficult...your headstone isn't up yet but the cemetary was nice enough to put out a plague with your name on it. The dirt they covered you with hasn't sunk all the way back down yet so that helped too. I put the daisies in the vase attached to the plague...wiped the leaves off the plague so your name could be read easier. The sun was high in the sky and beating down. I really just wanted to stretch out on the grass next to you like we used to do in the summers when you, me, and Danielle used to watch the clouds and look for shapes hidden among them. All those memories came rushing back...
Along with the realization that not only will you be missing out on important times left in my life but so will he...
One to two years...
Oh, Abba...
How are we going to handle that?
*sobs*
I don't want to have to...I don't want to...
Haven't I lost enough people already???
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